I stumbled upon this tumblr blog, entitled "Cluttered Thoughts", and it's simply beautiful. Her writing is stunning and inspiring and so incredible. It's honestly jaw dropping. She captures the essence of everything human and everything raw and real in her excerpts and pieces. I was scrolling through it and came across a piece that really struck me.

I had such a strong connection to this piece. I am constantly waiting. I've spent my whole life waiting. Waiting to turn sixteen, eighteen, twenty-one, waiting to be in high school, waiting to get into college, waiting to go to college, get married, have kids. I think and plan and dream about my life down the road. And while it's normal and perfectly fine to dream and plan, I feel like it's too consuming. It's holds me back from living in the moment. I want to be able to experience every moment to it's fullest, without waiting for something to happen, waiting for someone to come into my life. Why do humans do this? Why do we rush through life waiting for the important milestones to pass by? I feel like the first eighteen years of my life have flown by in front of my eyes and I have no control and no way to slow it down. I want to be able to step back and slow down.

This piece was really inspiring for me. I love finding writing like hers that really makes me stop and think about my life and my actions. I hope you check out her writing...


1 comment

  1. Salli, this really made me reflect on myself and realize that I'm the same way. When I was 10 I wanted to be 12 so I could take a babysitting course at my school and be the girl next door who babysits for all the families in my neighborhood. Then I wanted to be 16 so I could have the best, most extravagant sweet 16 for me and all my amazing friends. Then I wanted to be 18 so I could be a legal adult like all my friends and finally go to college. Even now I find myself looking ahead to when I'm 20 and I won't be a teenager and I'll have the best internship ever. It's important to have goals and a plan, but we also need to sit back, breathe, and enjoy the ride.
    xx, Lauren


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